I have abondoned you. Like always.

Though it is a a cycle. I come, I go, I come, I go. etc etc.

Sunglasses on the Subway

I'm on the subway, going southbound from St. George. The man in front of me is wearing sunglasses. Why do they do that? Is it because it's so sunny in the mostly underground routes? Maybe it's the flourescent lights that light up Museum station. Maybe the likes to sleep, and don't want to look ridiculous? But wouldn't you be most concerned about your mouth hanging open, tounge leaking drool in your left corner, than your eyeslashes twittering or whatever talent they might posses.

Though I do know for a fact that this man is not worried about the fluorescent lights or sleeping. For one, he is incredibly tanned having me believe that he is a fan of the sun. And no it is not sprayed on - he is in fact flaunting a very unattractive croc tan. Secondly, he's wide awake. Wide awake and staring right at me. Wide awake and thinking that I don't know. Possibly the main reason why people wear sunglasses on the subway trains, besides the fact they think they're cool, is so they can stare wherever they like and not look like a complete creep. But let this be a reminder: if you do on intend on being the "cool"-creep you are, make sure your sunglasses are FULLY tinted. Because dude, I can fully see your pupils glaring right through.

King starion, my stop. As I leave he smiles, completely throwing away the purpose of his sunglasses. You see, it wouldn't have been creepy if you didn't have the not-really-tinted specs on, creep. I say, take them off! Be proud of the creep you are, stop trying to hide it!

My Fan Expo 2009 Favourite Moments

- A girl wearing, "Then Buffy Staked Edward. The End"
- A really fat guy wearing a Halo costume.
- The really fat girl wearing some costume. Her belly was sticking out.
- This really hot..person. It was a nice costume, great body. But I'm not sure if it was a guy or a girl.
- Master the pole with the nail. It's what we used to grab hoodies from the far top.
- Spending 20 minutes picking out 20 comics. 50cents! With a minimum purchase of $10 (N) Whatever. Worth it!
- Guys telling me, "You don't look like you belong here"
- Guys telling me, "You probably think we're nerds don't you?"
- Telling guys, "I'm actually a big fan of certain Animes" and having them :O and conversate for a few minutes.
- Looking at the awesome and not so awesome costumes
- TRYING to jump into every picture I can get into, HA
- etc etc etc

Fan Expo

September 28th to the 30th consisted of me working half the day at the wonderful Fan Expo. At first I was like dude, some people are SERIOUS. But there were some seriously good custumes. I don't know what it's called, I think my sister said COS playing? Sorry. But I spent my time there working at the ever so wonderful Stylin Online both. When I signed up for the job VIA Craigslist, I was picture a both much like from the last convention I was helping at. You know, just a typical table. But NOOO, this was some massive structure of t-shirts. Inside and out and hoodies and shirt sticking up above you. It was insane and the amount of people were insane. I remember the 2nd day when I was making my way to the ever so far South building at the Metro Convetion Centre, I actually had to LINE UP just to get up the escalator. Our booth was directly across SPACE and they had a chair with a laptop on the side. And I was just ALMOST tempted to take that extra chair that wasn't being used and sit on it just to escape the whirlwind of people. The people I was working with were pretty cool and chill. Pay was so-so but I had a good time. Some cash and free merchandise? Can't say no! I had to rush my picks because I didn't want to miss my bus (which ended up happening anyways). So I ended up with a Kobra Kai shirt and a The Dude (Lebrowski) for myself and a glow in the dark Batman shirt that the boyfriend has always wanted. Check them out online. Shirts. Kids Shirts. Hoodies. Belt Buckles. Patches. The Works.

http://www.stylinonline.com/

It's Whatever

It's feels good to know you have someone you can call no matter how late it is. It feels even better when you know they don't mind when you're calling them sobbing and heaving deep breaths right through the reciever. They insist on staying on the phone for 5 more minutes until you start to fall asleep. That the very sound of their voice makes the pain much more bareable.

I guess all I have to say is Thank You because there are numerous things that I can think of, a possible 8, that wouldn't have been possible if it weren't for you and your goodness. Forever & Always.

Zac Efron

I just watched 17 Again today. An okay movie. Zac Efron is appealing outside HSM. Never in HSM.

Lesson Learned: Uploading Pictures

I've learned a lesson today. When you ave pictures on your digital camera, don't wait for the pictures to stack up. Because in the end it is just not worth it. Especially when there are hundreds of pictures that date back to last years New Years.

Fiction VS Non-Fiction

I was having a conversation with Julz last night. This is also a short conversation that I'll have with Denis whenever I mention the books. Harry Potter is a man I love, in the book. I consider him one of my boyfriends. It's just that Daniel Radcliffe ruins him. Okay, he's not hideous but the fella is too short. Dan is a no, Harry is a yes. Then in Twilight, Edward Cullen is more of a better boyfriend than Harry Potter because he treats me soo good. While reading the book you picture someone angelic because that is how they portray him in the novels. Then the movie comes along and whyyyy Robert Pattison? Okay I'll admit it, he's not bad when he smiles. But other than that! NO!

I am not saying they are ugly. It's just that I guess when you read a book you picture it to its best potential. I guess that's why some people love to read, they can only imagine what they can't have.

I have fallen in love with the characters within these novels, but grown into a short like with them in the movies. But of course I'd still watch the movies. Harry Potter and Twilight Saga FTW!

* Harry Potter made the record for biggest midnight opening with $20 Million. !!!

All These Game Sites

I've come to a realization. For the pass 2 hours I've been going through numerous sites hoping to be entertained by some game. Addictinggames, games.com, bored.com, newgrounds, freeonlinegames, net-games, miniclip, flashflashrevolution, shockwave, etc. etc. etc. You get what I mean. Yet here I am 2 hours later and a minute still unsuccesfully entertained. Why? Because I've played all these stupid games. Either beat them, sick of them, or they're just plain stupid.

I just want Starcraft to come out!!!

Gryffindoooor!

Julz found this Gryffindor tie on ebay. She's had th Slytherin tie for a while. And maybe I'm a nerd for saying this but "Yesss!" You dear tie are drool worthy. Don't let anyone judge you tie.

My Sister's Keeper

I've read My Sister's Keeper. I've cried so hard that once my boyfriend called me and I couldn't even talk properly because I was honestly choking on my own tears. It has to be one of the best books I have EVER read.

Yesterday I went to watch My Sister's Keeper at Yorkdale with my Denis (what a good sport). If you haven't read the book, you would enjoy it dearly. OR be like the girls that Denis was keeping tabs on that were crying. BUT if you HAVE read the book. OMG. I probably teared up two to three times, but no rolling tears down my face. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD! I CRIED IN DAREDEVIL. I DID NOT CRY IN THIS MOVIE! Probably because I was really upset that they totally ruined it! Would it be so hard to enhance Jessie's character a TAD more so that it could at least meet half of what it did in the book? That there could have been more of a background to the lawyer because it would have made things more dramatic! That they didn't make the mom a little bit more rude? THAT THE RIGHT DAUGHTER DIED, INSTEAD OF THE OTHER?! Like HOW do you change the ending that completely ruins the story! BOO! Boo to the movie! I watched it to give support and curiosity. Curiosity killed the cat. Now I'm going to have to re-read the book again just so I know that there still is hope in life. BOOKS RULE. GO READ A BOOK.

And scene.

Mindless

When everything seems alright, it never is. It's just a tempoary cover up. Or a ticking time bomb counting how long it takes for you to realize what it truly is. The longer it takes, the more stupid you are. Evidence proven. Evidence or not, you don't want to uncover the truth. If you did uncover it, you want to cover it all up again. Pretend it never happened. Truth is, and I am sure I am not the only one, there's a tiny feeling that you feel within your body. Specifically between your lungs and at the bottom of your stomach.

But they can be put away momentarily with some mental guidance. "That never happened" Evidence is there, shoving it in your face. Evidence being that you're having to tell yourself that "That never happened".

I'm either crazy, stupid, childish or even all of the above. I'm crazy for bringing it back to life. I'm stupid for still being here. I'm childish for believe this will last. That's the thing. I really really reaaaally, want it to last. I want what he says, because it is what I want. I just hope that he genuinely means it and believes it. We'll see how this goes.

This only came up because I was on the devil-site of a Facebook and I saw my Inbox and saw really old msgs. Really old as in from two years ago from him. July 3rd 2007 is the day he sent me that ridiculous msg that we both can't believe I replied to. Sad, sad, sad. But do I regret it? No. Will I eventually? What I have with him is unbelievable. So no.

Just Chilling

Just one of them days. Were I watch television at Denis'. Eating wings, pizza and mashed potatoes. With the every now and then popsicle. Earlier on I got another job interview call for Tuesday at a cafe as a Barista. Earlier before that I had a medical check up (hieght, weight, blood samples, urine samples) for my insurance. Seems that the one last year got denied due to.. stuff. Earlier before that even happened, I was asleep.

Time to eat. Aight-tis awaits.

My Dream Place

I do not want a place that is big or a place that is too small. I would like a loft good sir. Open concept. Dark mahogany wooden floors. In the living room a brown stone wall as a centre point up against a dark blood red wall. A nice kitchen with a blue tiled conter top. A nice rough masculine balcony overlooking.. well anything pretty. Maybe.. looking over my pool that just happens to be there because I live at the top near a cliff and it just happens to be the perfect width and height to match my balcony. My bedroom will have a his and hers closet. Mine bigger of course. A nice big bed with that thing going over. You know what I mean.. eh. A CANOPY. That is it! Everything else doesn't matter. Oh a pool table, a beer storage that can be controlled by a remote! A really nice bathroom, stand up shower. Glass. Dark stone floor. Big tub. Candles everywhere. Two sinks. Ya da ya da ya da. An office. Everything else I don't care! Except... there has to be a really big french door entrance to the loft. Wooden. Preferably blue, red or black.

It's Been A While

So yes I've realized it's been a while since I've last blogged. Only because I got my internet hooked up just a few days ago. Yes, we've finally moved. It's a bugger. The place is smaller. Good this it is tempoary or I would kill someone. Okay, never I am not that much of a princess. Though you know you are spoiled when you open your mouth towards your mother go "aahhhh" and she feeds you a whopping and delicious spoonful of whatever is on her plate. Then once again asks if you want more without even you asking for it! What a life. Sarcasm placed here.

Continuing on, we are now in Mississauga. The ups and downfalls.

Ups
- there is a gas station across the street. So when I need change, to the gas station I shall go
- there is a library across the street! God loves me so.
- our backyard is bigger. If you saw our last backyard, you would understand!
- my room isn't as bright (my old bedroom had a really big window and the top half was a semi circle and there was no curtain covering over it. Please try to understand my pain)
- Buses just seem to like me. The moment I across the street the bus is there most of the time.
- Buses run longer. Thank you!
- 15 mins away from sqaure 1
- 30 mins closer to my boyfriend
- etc.

Downfalls
- the biggest perverts are here
- the buses here are older, I think
- takes me an hour to get to Islington
- place is smaller
- my room is really bright (paint wise. Once again I asked for a tealish greenish, my sister asks for a bright-ass colour, my mother settles for yellow. Like a few years ago when I asked for purple, my sister asked for yellow, she settles for pink. Princess Pink! But it's okay)
- I can no longer blast my music, the fact that I know live in a townhouse
- I don't know anybody here! :(
- If I do know people here I don't want to see them (that I know of)
- etc.

Okay. No more. I'm getting depressed.

Good Morning

Another day. Sigh. I have a feeling today will be very uneventful. I even made a game for myself today. To not eat for as long as I can. Yes, that is my game. A game that will kill me but hopefully rip those last 2 lbs I want away. Plus, it'll keep me somewhat entertained? UGH!

Well, I'm going to vacuume because my mother is telling me to do so. Apparantly if I don't vacuume we won't be going to Mississauga tonight. I don't want to go :( I don't have my bed there yet, I can't put anything away cause my dresser is still here in Markham, and UGH!

I guess I'll vacuume though. Did you know that vacuuming your house burns more calories than having hot and heavy sex? Well now you know. I watched it on Oprah a long time ago. So next time chickies, when you're feeling fat and bloated put your horny-ness to a rest and pull out that vacuume cleaner! The heavier the better! Of course if you have enough energy in you, go ahead and do what you really want to do :) Slap him in the face for not vacuuming for you!

Dogs First Haircut!

So today I decided to cut my dogs hair with the assistance of my younger sister. My dogs a Westie-Poo (Western Highlander and Poodle) so her hair is white and puffy. More like dreadlocks, or on the verge. And she looks like an old man. So my sister death gripped her while I pulled out the razor. I did a number 5 on her body and a number 3 on her face, belly, and paws. And a quick bare buzz around her area. I took a BIT too much from the top of her head, so she now looks like a boy. My poor baby Mia :( HAIR GROWS! (You'd think I'd take my own words to thought)

A Waste of a Day

Today I did absolutely nothing. As a matter of fact, yesterday was a complete waste as well. The past two days I have done nothing but eat and watch movies that my dad has downloaded for us. Damn him! I don't even remember the movies we watched. Okay... maybe I remember some. I watched Confessions of a Shopaholic numberous times. I watched Twilight once. I watched New In Town, Into the Reef (I think that's what it was called). The entire time I was starting at that girls... mustache! Work on your abs, but you don't wax your mustache! Hmm.. questionable. Oh Princess Protection Program with Selena Gomez and Demi Lovato. I like them, hush.

Other than movies I've been eating. Other than eating I've been stuck on craigslist PRAYING FOR A REPLY! My resumes not bad. I'm just too God damn slow! But I just e-mailed about a dozen ads. I called a man. Tempted to call another person for a stupid job. Am I willing to stand in a corner and hand out flyers 5 hours for 5 days a week? Desperate times indeed!

Ugh I really need a good book to read. I forgot my Wicked book in my other house so I'm really bored. Maybe it's a good thing that I don't have it, because if I did have it I wouldn't have watched my numerous movies, ate, Craiglisted, did that one load of laundry, taken a shower, etc.etc.etc.

Quote of June 18th 2009

Boyfriend is looking at hats online and screams "Sicky-bro!"

Sicky-bro: adj. A word my boyfriend made up just over a year ago. And if I were beside everytime he belted it into my ear, I would have chopped off every limb by now. In sections. Like quarters. So there's some parts of him spared. UNTIL NOW.

My First Concert

I feel like a noob but whatever. At least I can say it was a good concert with a nice line up. Bedouin Soundclash and then PARAMOOORE and finally No Doubt : ) It was worth all the prepping which consisted of blasting Paramore and No Doubt for the past 2 months. SICK. Paramore later on in the year? Whenever it is, I am most def there.

JOB-LESS!

Hi, I'm a 19 year old female in need of a job. I've never been so bored, depressed, and sooo in need of money. Firstly it is the summer time. No, summer has barely begun and I don't even have enough change to get where I want to! Secondly, I just paid my tuition (the reason to my broken-ness) and I just realize that I'll need a stead 300+ bucks every month just for my phone bill and GO monthly pass and Metro. Oh the Horror. I want a job and I need it noooooow. I've been on Craigslist, I texted people that I know, I've asked my family for advice. Damn, I should have saved more money. Well now.. my next paycheck is coming friday. It'll be half my vacation hours. OMG. I still have to pay my phone bill. Okay, enough of this useless rant. It's just making things worse. I'm sweating like a dog just thinking about this. Okay.. and breathe.

And Happy Birthday Mama : )

Quote of June 9th 2009

My mother talking to my dog, "You have so many nipples! You're so lucky! You want to have sex, no?"

And I think my dog is missing a nipple

The Hangover

So yesterday me and the boyfriend did our typical night out: ate some food, watched a movie. Always a good night out. The movie we watched was The Hangover. At first I was, "Eh, this movie can't be that funny. I already seen the preview and typical movies have everything good in the previews". BUT OMG! NO WAY! This movie was pretty darn good and hysterical. Probably every 10 minutes at the very least will you be laughing. And I am not one to laugh in movies. I'm not going to spoil it, so go freaking watch it! It's ha-ha-ha-halarious. Infact, I'm going to watch it today again, because I liked it. Including the fact that movies are $5 today at Scarborough. Ta-ta!

Quote of June 7th 2009

Mother screams through younger sister, "You better vacuume upstairs and downstairs or you'll never live to regret it!"

My First Post

While writing my first post I am wearing a shirt that belonged to a boy in elementary school, my family is watching Push and it's shaking the entire house, I'm listening to No Doubts singles so I can sing all their songs at their concert (exciting!), my palms are sweaty (er), my feet are sweaty (erR), and currently on craiglist searching for a job!

I just need to remember this very uneventful moment in time. Oh, and while I'm at it. While writing my first post I am going to record my promise to update this every other day (if not numerous times a day).

And I don't like promises.